Polemic, premeditat si antagonic.

Am dificultati in a face alegeri, in a lua decizii. Obisnuiam sa fac totul la intamplare, dupa instinct. Acum ma gandesc de 2 ori cand aleg ceva, in ce masura ii afecteaza pe altii, in ce masura ma afecteaza pe mine. Aleg uneori, insa, sa mai merg pe stradute laturalnice, dupa instinct. Sunt stradute intunecate, aproape fara niciun pic de pietris pe care sa mergi. Dar sunt stradute ce ma atrag, tocmai pentru ca sunt scufundate in necunoscut.. si vreau sa-l descopar. Era frumos cand il descopeream cu el, dar a ales sa mearga pe un alt drum, unul cu lumini, unul cu siguranta. M-a refuzat, galant, incercand sa ma ia cu el. Dar in incapatanarea mea, deloc negativa as putea adauga,  aveam sa raman pe drumul meu.  Si, bineinteles, asta ne-a indepartat.  Ne deosebesc multe, foarte multe, dar ne lega un lucru, nu stiu sa-l numesc. Era ceva intre noi ce ne tinea pe acelasi drum. Nu am fost niciodata tipul femeii trofeu, eu nu sunt o fata pe care sa o vrei pentru trupul ei frumos, cu forme perfecte. Eu sunt o fata pe care o vrei pentru misterul din jurul ei, si nu ma daruiesc celor care nu ma merita. Problema nu a fost ca el nu ma merita, ci eu nu il meritam pe el.

Affichez vos couleurs.

Sunt momente cand doar muzica iti este aproape, cand doar ea te poate scoate dintr-o stare in care esti cazut(a) de prea mult timp. Nu stiu de ce, dar muzica pare sa devina cea mai buna prietena a mea. Si melodia asta ma face sa zambesc mereu, no matter what. De aceea vreau sa o impartasesc cu voi.

A child's soul

When we were kids we used to believe in Santa, the Easter Bunny, the Toothfairy. We used to pretend to be anything, anyone. We lived in a fairytale, and it was amazing. The reason for which children will always be happier than grown ups is that they have faith. We always look for something to believe in, to hope for, something to guide us. Why do we stop searching? Why is curiosity leaving us? Everything is supposed to be brighter, to make more sense, but it just doesn't. I start to think that a kid will always see life as it is: beautiful, intense, simple, yet surprizing. No, I'm not a grown up, I just think that this is what happens. Yes, I love being a child. I hope I'll stay like this as long as possible, because I know that even if I change, inside of me will always be a child's soul :)

Keepers

People will fall in love with the mystery that surrounds you, it always happens like this. There is something about a mysterious person that attracts the others; that type of smile which says "You will never know me, sweetie". But once they will see the real you, most of them will be scared, or disgusted, they will run. If you ever have the guts to reveal the inner you, the true one, you will have to take care to whom you will reveal. The ones that will fall in love with YOU are the people to keep around you, forever..or for as long as you can keep them.

Lady in red

I've dreamt of myself in a ruby red dress, surrounded by men, true men, not boys.. They were all just shadows, but by the way they were acting you could say that they were charmed. As every men came closer and asked for a dance, my flawlessly red lips would automatically say no, as they were bound to just one man. And that man was there. I could see his face among all the shadows. I was atracted to his smile as the moth flies towards the light. He took my hand and, as the music started, he got closer and whispered in my ear. "I've never seen you looking so lovely as you did tonight, never seen you shine so bright. I've never seen so many men asking you if you wanted to dance. And when you turned to me and smiled, it took my breath away. Oh, the lady in red is dancing with me, and it's right were I want to be. And I know so well this beauty by my side." He then pressed his lips against mine in a kiss that seemed to last forever.. "I love you" said he to me then. And the image was foggy and it started to fade away while the music would go on and on and on, like the dream wanted to come right to reality. And it did.

Regrets.

Daca m-ar fi intrebat cineva ce cred despre regret, i-as fi spus ca pentru mine acel sentiment este inutil. Obisnuiam sa cred ca o data ce faci o greseala, iti ceri scuze si treci peste acel moment. Regretul nu avea nicio implicare in acest proces. Acum stiu ca nu poti face nimic fara regret. Greselile sunt parti din noi si trebuie sa invatam din ele. Trebuie sa ne asumam responsabilitatea pentru orice actiune desfasuram. Regretul este bun, sanatos, important. Acum cred cu tarie ca este un sentiment normal, un sentiment al tutror oamenilor. Sau cel putin al meu..

I, book


       I talk a lot about myself. Even if everythig I say is true, it doesn't say that much about me. I have always felt like I was an open book, but it was a special one. I am a book written in both ink and braille. Those who see and search with their eyes will see the ink-me, the surface, not less of who I am. But those who search with their soul, those who feel what I am, those will see the deeper me, the braille-me, the one I truly am. Those are the people I love, those are who love me.