I remember when I lost my mind



"What would you call yourself?"
"I used to answer with <<a writer>>. Now I'm not so sure, but I think the closest answer is <<a leader>>. I work with words and feelings, in written or spoken form, anyway."
"How do you write?"
"How is my writing or how am I able to write?"
"How do you find your words?"
"Hmm"
"Tell me your secret."
"Are you afraid of losing your mind?"
"Ahm.. No, I guess"
"This is what I do, I lose my mind. I free it and let it run, wherever it wants to go. And when it comes back.. Done is the magic."
"Do you believe in magic?"
"I believe in order and I believe in chaos, in God and Devil, in fairies and aliens. Why wouldn't I believe in magic? I am not ready to believe that we, as a species, are as boring as we so thoroughly try to be. I know I am not normal anyways, but I never said I wanted to be. Being different and taking risks, this is what has kept me going so far. Normality brings me to insanity, ironically enough"
"Do you remember what it is like? To lose your mind?"
"Yes, it is madness, but it is not unconsciously. I do it because I want to and because it makes me feel right. You should try it sometimes, but be careful. Once you do it, you can hardly find a way back."
"How do you lose your mind?"
"That, deary, is a secret I am not yet willing to share. And if you search deeply enough, you'll find the answer on your own."